It's official. Today I received the letter from Estée Lauder that formally rejects my plea for employment. She did write the letter and mail it on the day that I returned from the West, so it wasn't like it was waiting for me when I got back. But that means my hopes are all shattered, and I've got to get back out there again. Ah well.

"I want a reason for the way things have to be, I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me"